listen to my mind :|

i'm so sorry..
aku ga pernah bermaksud buat bilang kayak yang kamu dengar,jujur aj aku sama rina ga ad apa2..
maaf kalau aku nyinggung perasaan kamu,aku ga pernah bermaksud sedikitpun untuk itu...
aku ga pernah mau buat kamu kecewa,maafin aku
please dengerin aku dulu,dengerin penjelasan aku....
perduli atau enggak aku ga permasalahin,yang penting kamu dengerin dulu apa yang mau aku jelasin ke kamu :(
only you Cynthia :)

jangan salah paham dengan kata-kata wa yang barusan wa sampein,sungguh wa ga bermaksud bilang kayak gitu...wa harap le ngerti,i'm so sorry :|

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I Wanna Grow Old With You

I hope,I wish and I pray...
Cynthia :*

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"Someday I'll meet you" ... A part of carl & ellie's life

Cynthia ({})

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Remember when - Carl and Ellie

I love you Cynthia :*

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If tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face this world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

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kenapa ?

salah apalagi,kenapa kamu diem aja...
apa karna aku chat sama Rina?
aku cuman chat biasa aja,apa itu salah...
atau apa?
kenapa kamu cuman diem aja,aku panggilin kamu diem,aku tanya juga diem... :(
maafin aku cyn,aku ga bermaksud buat kamu marah... :(

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And i Hope,and I Wish,and I Pray

I don’t know why you’re so far away 
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through 
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life,Cynthia :)

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Until I find you

Lately I've been trying 
To fill up my days since you're gone. 
The speed of love is blinding, 
And I didn't know how to hold on. 
My mind won't clear. 
I'm out of tears. 
My heart's got no room left inside. 

How many dreams will end? 
How long can I pretend? 
How many times will love pass me by, 
Until I find you again? 

Will the arms of hope surround me? 
Will time be a fairweather friend? 
Should I call out to angels, 
Or just drink myself sober again? 
I can't hide, it's true. 
I still burn for you. 
Your memory just won't let me go. 

How many dreams will end? 
How long can I pretend? 
How many times will love pass me by, 
Until I find you again? 

I'd hold you tighter, 
Closer than ever before. 
Yeah. 
No flame would burn brighter, 
If I could touch you once more, 
Hold you once more! 

How many dreams will end? 
How long can I pretend? 
How many times will love pass me by, until I find you again? 
'Til I find you again.

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Now and forever

Whenever I'm weary from the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness when my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be your man.

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
If I'd only known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever I will be your man
Now and forever I will be your man

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Right here waiting for you - Ricard marx

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you

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I cry- shayne ward

You said goodbye 
I fell apart 
I fell from all we had 
To I never knew 
I needed you so bad 

You need to let things go 
I know, you told me so 
I've been through hell 
To break the spell 

Why did I ever let you slip away 
Can't stand another day without you 
Without the feeling 
I once knew 

I cry silently 
I cry inside of me 
I cry hopelessly 
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 
I cry 
Cause you're not here with me 
I cry 
Cause I'm lonely as can be 
I cry hopelessly 
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

If you could see me now 
You would know just how 
How hard I try 
Not to wonder why 

I wish I could believe in something new 
Oh please somebody tell me it's not true (oh girl) 
I'll never be over you 
[ From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/s/shayne-ward-lyrics/i-cry-lyrics.html]

Why did I ever let you slip away 
Can't stand another day without you 
Without the feeling 
I once knew 

I cry silently 
I cry inside of me 
I cry hopelessly 
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 
I cry 
Cause you're not here with me 
I cry 
Cause I'm lonely as can be 
I cry hopelessly 
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 

If I could have you back tomorrow 
If I could lose the pain and sorrow 
I would do just anything 
To make you see 
You still love me 

I cry silently 
I cry inside of me 
I cry hopelessly 
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again 
I cry 
Cause you're not here with me 
I cry 
Cause I'm lonely as can be 
I cry hopelessly 
Cause I know I'll never breathe your love again

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i will

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me
All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down but it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be all that you want and get myself together
'Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day and make everything okay

i love you Cynthia :*

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keep holding on

Keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through
Just stay strong
‘Cause you know I’m here for you, I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through, we’ll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it’s too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I’ll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

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smile :)

And that’s why I smile
It’s been awhile since every day
And everything has felt this right

And now you turn it all around
And suddenly you’re all I need

The reason why-y-y-y
I smiiiiillleeeee... :)

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innocence

Waking up i see that everything is ok
the first time in my life and now it’s so great
slowing down i look around and i am so amazed
i think about the little things that make life great
i wouldn’t change a thing about it
this is the best feeling
this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect, please don’t go away, i need you now
and i’ll hold on to it, don’t you let it pass you by
i found a place so safe, not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it’s so clear
feel calm i belong, i’m so happy here
it’s so strong and now i let myself be sincere
i wouldn’t change a thing about it
this is the best feeling
this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect, please don’t go away, i need you now
and i’ll hold on to it, don’t you let it pass you by
it’s the state of bliss you think you’re dreaming
it’s the happiness inside that you’re feeling
it’s so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
it’s the state of bliss you think you’re dreaming
it’s the happiness inside that you’re feeling
it’s so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
it’s so beautiful it makes you want to cry
this innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
this innocence is brilliance, please don’t go away
cause i need you now
and i’ll hold on to it, don’t you let it pass you by
this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect, please don’t go away, i need you now
and i’ll hold on to it, don’t you let it pass you by

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Ga ada pilihan

senang bisa lihat kamu lagi sekarang,maaf kalau aku bandel udah ingkar janji...tapi aku harus lakuin itu,aku bnr2 kangen sm kamu :(

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envy

waktu kita bersama,aku berikan waktuku buat kamu...

dan aku berharap kamu juga berikan waktumu buat aku...

ga tau kapan itu terjadi,pengen banged rasanya,bersamamu tanpa harus melihat kamu chat dengan orang lain :(

aku tau siapa yang kamu chat,dan aku coba buat nahan rasa yang aku rasain,mencoba untuk lebih sabar...

"cinta akan menemukan jalanya"aku harap kata2 itu benar...cinta ga akan salah memilih jalanya...

dear,i miss you :(

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this is crazy

i just meet you,and this is crazy....
maaf udah ingkar janji :|

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i miss you :(

ga kerasa udah 2 minggu kita ga ketemu,ga tau apalagi yang aku rasain sekarang...
so lost without you :(
please ijinkan... O:)

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"you don't even know how very special you are"

Sayang,makasih ya buat semuanya,pengen banget meluk le lagi dalam waktu dekat ini,tapi aku ga boleh ingkar janji...
aku ga bisa nutupin perasaan aku kalau aku benar-benar ga tenang sekarang,mungkin hanya kamu yang bisa buat aku tenang,tanpa harus aku netesin air mata setiap paginya :)

Maafin aku karna mungkin aku hanya bisa buat kamu sedih,buat kamu kecewa,dan buat kamu sakit...
ga tau juga kamu masih ingat hari ini 5 bulan yang lalu atau enggak,mungkin aku ga ada artinya buat kamu,tapi aku mau kamu tau kalau aku CINTA :)
aku ga pernah mau sedikitpun buat kamu kecewa,aku pengen lihat kamu senyum lagi..
Kamu masih inget ga dulu tanggal 17 juli hal bodoh apa yang aku lakukan,aku benar-benar nyesal buat kamu nangis waktu itu,aku cuman pengen pergi dengan tenang,aku ga mau ganggu kamu sama dia walaupun sebenarnya aku berharap sama kamu..
aku nungguin kamu buat bilang tetap tinggal,tapi kamu ga pernah bilang itu sampai besok paginya kamu marah marah,dan kamu bilang " jangan pernah kembali lagi kalau aku pergi sekarang",kata-kata kamu yang buat aku balik lagi,aku ga perduli dengan semua urusanku,yang aku pikirin cuman kamu,aku pulang...
aku sadar kalau aku salah,dan aku beneran minta maaf sama kamu,kamu inget ga malemnya kamu kerumah buat jemput aku,senyum pertama kali yang aku lihat dari kamu ga bakalan pernah aku lupain,makasih ya sayang :)
kamu yang buat aku semangat lagi untuk tetap bertahan,aku ga pernah berpikir buat ninggalin kamu,tapi aku ga tahan liat semua yang terjadi waktu itu,dan sekarang apapun yang terjadi aku akan hadapi.
aku coba buat sabar hadapin semua yang terjadi setelah itu,rasa sayang aku ga pernah mati buat kamu...
cyn,aku sayang banged sama kamu,aku kangen banged sama kamu,aku kangen kamu yang aku kenal...
jangan pernah sedikitpun berpikir kalau aku ga sayang atau ga cinta sama kamu,karna ga ada alasan buat aku ngelakuin itu..

aku minta sama kamu tetap senyum ya,kamu ga tau kan seberapa berartinya senyum kecilmu itu buat orang-orang yang sayang sama kamu,jadi tetaplah tersenyum :)

"you don't even know how very special you are"

            sincerely me :)

mimpi indah ya buat kamu disana,i love you sayang "Cynthia Angelina"



19-4-12

J Janji Kelingking  J

ingatkan sama moment "janji kelingking" ini ?

...

"Cinta sejati tak pernah mati untuk menemukan jalanya"

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pengen mati aja :|

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Ga ada artinya lagi :(

2 hari kamu cuekin aku,kamu cuman diam aja...itu menyiksa,aku ga bisa kayak gini,rasanya pengen mati aja..ga ada gunanya lagi aku hidup kalau kayak gini,cyn dengerin aku...aku cinta sama kamu :|
ga tau harus berapa banyak lagi air mataku keluar untuk rasain yang aku rasain sekarang,aku ga perduli lagi...apa yang aku rasain sekarang aku ga boleh kalah,ga perduli aku hancur...only you!!!

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tulisan kecilku :)

setiap pagi aku hanya bisa netesin air mata,kamu bener2 berarti buat aku...

karna kamu aku ngerasain yang namanya cinta,karna kamu aku ngerasain gimana rasanya tersenyum krna cinta...

kamu yang buat aku berjuang sampai sekarang cyn...

kamu bilang " Cari aja cewe lain " kamu bilang kayak gitu,aku ga tau mau bilang gimana lagi...prasaan aku syang aku,cinta aku...kamu cyn,ga ad yang lain...

aku seneng banged denger kata "sayang" dari kamu...rasanya aku mau pindah aja kesemarang,aku ga bisa jauh dari kamu...aku akuin itu...

aku pernah janji sama kamu dulu...semester 3 aku atur jadwal buat kamu...biar kamu ga ngerasa sendiri,aku berusaha buat ada untuk kamu..walaupun ga setiap saat,tapi aku berusaha buat jagain kamu...

aku tau kamu ga bisa ditinggal sendirian..aku ngerti...semua ini aku lakuin karna aku ga mau kamu ngerasa sendiri...ini aku cyn....lihat,siapa aku disini...kamu yang buat aku kuat,aku harap kamu sadar kalau kamu tuh berarti...

DLMA!!!

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idk why :|

ga tau kenapa,semua berubah :|
maafin aku cyn,aku beneran sayang sama kamu,aku cinta sama kamu... kamu harus tau itu,jangan keras kepala cyn...
maafin aku kalau aku selama ini cuman bisa nyakitin kamu,aku bawelin kamu...itu karna aku sayang sama kamu cyn...cyn lihat aku,ini aku....aku ga pernah main-main ...aku berjuang sampe disini aku peruangin apa yang aku rasain,itu karna aku sayang banged sama kamu ... please cyn,jangan jadi orang asing bagi aku :|
suatu saat nanti kamu pasti baca tulisan kecilku,mungkin bukan sekarang...tapi aku harap kamu dengarkan aku...

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tulisan kecilmu :'(
aku ga kuat bacanya...bnr2 ga kuat....kenapa sih kamu :|

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missing you again :(

2 hari kamu berubah,padahal baru kemarin kita ketawa bareng2,bercanda bareng2,kenapa kamu sekarang berubah?
dimana kamu saat aku sakit,dimana kamu saat aku perlu kamu...dimana!!!
cuman kamu read,kamu ga bales lagi kalau aku ga chat lagi...
aku ga tau kamu mandi atau mati sih..ga pernah kamu mandi tpi 3 jam kemudian baru kasi kabar....argghhhh
kamu ga tau ya,aku kwatir banged sama kamu,aku ga tau kamu ditempat sakow ngapain,tapi please,kasi kabar dong,jngan diem aja...jangan cuek aja..kalau aku salah bilang,jangan cuman diem...aku ga bisa kayk gini :'(

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